Do you ever have seasons where you're rocking it so good, like- your kids brushing their teeth twice a day, making it to story time at the library every Tues morning, and you wake up early every morning and read the Bible.... and others where you roll with the punches so hard that you don't even know when the last time your kids brushed their teeth was, you let your kids watch a ridiculous amount of TV to have a little bit of peace, and you send your husband to work in dirty socks??
Seasons are just that... seasons.
They come and go.
You survive them, you rock them, you hate them, you love them.
Sometimes the Lord takes us through seasons just to survive, He has something bigger for us that we cannot see. Oh, how I have begged Him to show me what's at the end, begged Him to please lift the blanket of sorrow and sadness so that I can see joy again.
2018 was a tough year on many levels.
Year 10 of marriage was tough. (holllaaa for year 11🙌🙌🙌) and a fresh 30 years on this earth left me in a place of wondering what even is this journey of life, marriage, and motherhood
cuz it ain't always cool.
Per usual, the new year brings out the goals, the resolutions, and the changes; and its all so good, there's nothing better than a fresh start with the date of 1/1 and a brand new 365 days of endless possibilities. But I'm here to drop the brutal truth that as we ring in the new year, I am guarded and I have not let my mind wonder too far into the magic of a new year.
and I am whispering to myself that its okay.
If you're there too, if you're guarded, if you're coming out of a crappy year and hesitantly hopeful for 2019, join me in giving yourself time, grace and patience. If you don't have your diet plan, your mental health plan, and your debt-free plan in place and ready to go.
I'm there too.
But remember:
YOU are most important for your husband
YOU are most important for your kids.
Take care of YOU first in 2019.
I am confident the rest will fall into place.
Happy and blessed 2019!
