Whew! Excuse while I stop my head from spinning. I just wanna stand at the top of a mountain and yell at the top of my lungs.

But.. I shall refrain,

a.) there are no mountains close by.

b.) Just gotta man up and do what I gotta do.

Ok, so in a nut shell, I went to NM to look at houses. Went one place the first day and found one we liked (but not loved)... went to another place the next day and found one we loved for cheaper. Talked to guy from day 1 house told him we were gonna go with a different home. Day 1 guy said: send me the floor plan and I will work something up for you for the same price. blah blah BLAH! Can we run into any more bumps in the road?? I mean really. At this point I'm willing to pay any amount of money to get us a house and get us moved down there ASAP! Seriously, people are telling us to "shop around" and don't make hasty decisions (and we did, and we don't think we are at this point). But man alive! So... really I have no new answers, YES we found a house that we loved that is more in our price range... but now were waiting to see if day 1 guy can offer us what we are wanting. We would prefer to go with day 1 guy cuz 1.)we are 1 step ahead of the game in the financing dept. 2.) He is closer so we won't be driving an hour and a half to sign, look, decide on stuff. and 3.) He is saying he can get us in quicker than day 2 guy. Got all that?? Not that you probably care about our house drama...

Just scroll on down and see my handsome little man in all his 3 month old glory.

3 months!

Wow!! It is totally ridiculous the things that change after child #1... or even #2. Not a day went by that I couldn't tell you EXACTLY how old Madelynn was. I would celebrate the "month" milestones... this time around, I am only reminded when someone tells me that my son is 3 months old that day. LAM-O!!! I feel neglectful. I know, thats seems a little silly to say, but I just never thought I would forget!!

I will give myself slack in the brain loss-ness that has occured since Stetson was born. People ask me when he was born, and how much he weighed and I honestly sometimes cannot remember and have to seriously think about it. Losing as much blood as I did and being anemic (which means that your blood levels are low so there is less oxygen going to your brain... which results in not being able to think) I don't remember much about that day... and I still struggle to remember things like how much he weighed, and the day he was born. Make sense??

So... like you came here to get all that crammed in your brain... here is my little mister at 3 months.

-Size 3 diapers

-Drinks 6 oz.'s every 3 hours

-Still the absolute most sweetest, angel faced, little man I ever laid eyes on. I didn't think It was possible, but every second I just love him more and more.

-He loves, loves LOVES to be held.

-Has the longest, fullest eyelashes I have ever seen on a 3 month old.

-Dis-likes tummy time... but I am convinced all babies do.

-Loves his sisters and smiles and laughs at them.

-Is losing his hair. He was definitely my most haired baby, but now it is slowly going away. He has little bald spots here and there on his head.

-VERY hot natured and is a personal heater, like his daddy.

-Stops and listens very carefully when he hears Nat's voice. He loves Nat to death... maybe possibly even more than he loves his momma. He will sit and stare and coo and laugh at Nat

-Loves to be swaddled.

-loves to take a bath.

oh... and did I mention he has stolen my heart?!?!

Think POSITIVE!

I'm gonna try and be as nice, and sweet, and loving as I can for this post.... So without spilling my guts and telling you what I REALLY think about all this, I will be the bigger person and not dwell on what I would love to sit here and dwell on. :)

After lots of advice and lots of talking to people, we have decided it would be best for us to just back outta the house. Looooooooooooooooong story short, were pretty much fed up with what we have endured these past 2 months, and were gonna do something about it. Not only that, but we just don't feel like its a good "starter" home for us. Took us 2 months, and $1000 we'll never see again to learn... but just as they say, "you live and you learn".

and thats that.

So tomorrow, we are heading back to NM to look for yet, another house. This time around we know more and are using a totally different person to help us. The plan as of now is that we are going to buy 3 acres of land Nat's brother owns, and we are going to buy a prefabricated home and stick 'er on the land. I'm really excited.. although it means starting this process all over again, I feel like this is what we should have done from the begining. In the end we are getting a brand new house, and I much bigger house that will suit our needs right now. So we shall see what tomorrow brings!! If you think about us, pray for us!!

Oh and, I have not forgotten!!! I do have a 3 months post for the little man in the works. Promise. (Im just saying this for myself... so I can hold myself accountable.) :)

Houzin bidness.

Welp, I know that your all so curious about why I am still living in Tehas. Right??? Ok, so maybe it hasn't even crossed your mind. BUT, I have had lots of people asking me about it so I figured I should fill you in. We thought we were maybe supposed to close on the 29th (Oct.). Turns out that was (obviously) a no go. So we have no earthly idea when were gonna close on the house and be able to (FINALLY) move. I wish I could sit down with a nice, informative realtor and have them tell me EVERYTHING and then some about buying a house.... cuz I'll just be honest here, its the most retarded thing I think I've ever done. Like why in the HECK did it take 2 months to do the inspection on the house. I'm just so confused and lost and have sooooooo many questions that I want answers to.

So we got the inspection report back the other day (literally 2 months after we told them we wanted to buy the house.. I'm no genius but shouldn't we be in the house 2 months later?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?).... and there are lots of things on the house that will NEED to be fixed before we will go through with buying a house.... and were just still WAITING to hear back from her to know of the seller is gonna agree to fix... blah blah blah. Needless to say I am T-O ed about how this has all gone and all I can say is I hope that I will get to spend Christmas with my husband and kids all under one roof, all under OUR roof with OUR Christmas tree.

We were/kinda still are/maybe/probably not, thinkin about just buying a new/different home and just be done with this so we can be together again. Who knows what will happen. Guess I'll fill ya in when I know somethin.

Wishful thinking.....

P.S. I would advise NOT clicking on the above photo and seeing how stupidly retarded I am...

P.S.S. Yes, I am holding my child like that. Careless?? No. Skilled?? You got it.

P.S.S.S. My dear sweet, wonderful, partner, lover of a husband is in town (AGAIN!!) so that's why you haven't heard from me in awhile.

Until he leaves.....

(like: until next time) (get it??)

Daddy's visit!

Well, hopefully, prayerfully, PLEASE dear Lord I beg of you, this was Nat's last visit. We kinda thought we would be closing on the house on the 29th... but... I've heard buying a house is crazy insane and things dont usually go as planned. We were still pretty bummed when we heard that things weren't going as we had thought. It makes matters a little worse that our family is split up and has been for 3 months and that my poor dear husband has been having to live all alone in a motel for 3 months and hasn't had a home cooked meal, or anyone to wash his clothes for him in 3 months. We have done a lot of back and forth this week with the realtor and loan officer and supposedly things are getting underway and we will probably be closing next week on the house... and if that changes again, I will not be a very happy or nice lady.

ANYWAYS... so I had a fun filled time planned for us this time around. I always try to have something excited for us planned when Nat comes. All 3 of the kids took really good to Nat. I always worry about that. Mostly just Madelynn, but she did awesome this time around.

We went to the pumpkin patch, where the girls (mostly Madelynn) were pretty tired and fussy. They both pretty much were whiney unless they were being held. After awhile they both warmed up and had a good time.

It is simply IMPOSSIBLE to get a good picture of all 3 of them.

Pretty girl.

Madelynn's oh so lovely white pumpkin that SHE picked out.

The zoo... Where the weather could not have been any better! There was hardly any people there and the girls had a blast.

feeding the giraffes.

ok... so I win white trash award of the year. We totally forgot Payton's shoes at home and didn't realize it until we got to the zoo and went to put her shoes on her. This trip was 85% just for her (cuz she is REALLY into animals right now) so I wasn't about to make her sit in the stroller and not be able to get out and explore. So fortunately, I did have an extra pair of socks that I always carry in the diaper bag so she totally walked around in SOCKS!! It was funny, and ridiculous all at the same time. Oh well.. one of those things we'll always remember.

Nothing brings joy to my heart than to see my kids happy, smiling, and having the time of their lives.

and oh my soul... this girl. This precious little 2 year old girl. The girl, who 2 years ago stole my heart and made my dreams come true. This girl whom drives me absolutely INSANE and then 2 seconds later has her arms wrapped around my neck telling me she loves me. THIS picture... describes THIS girl so well. It goes a little something like this: "Madelynn hold momma's hand" .. "NO... I hold my own hand"... and so goes my little angel walking around the zoo, holding her own precious little hand. Strong willed?? Slighly. Stubborn??? Slightly. Adorable?? YEP.

A fall festival.

after playing many games, and having many melt downs over wanting a scuker and not getting one, she finally got one. and her face tells you all about it.

Payton listening to the guitar. The girls got an ear for music. We all walked away and realized she wasn't following us and turned around to see her dancing to the music. It was so sweet.

mister is just as happy as can be in someone arms.

Nat and I carved our pumkins, and Madelynn painted her pretty white one.

Our little pumpkin family. :)

Madelynn and Micalea dressed as 80's girls.

Wow, that was long!! So sorry, but if your still here THANKS for reading my blog and THANKS for your feedback. I appreciate each and every little comment I get about it. I LOVE to write and I LOVE my kids... so put the 2 together and I LOVE to blog about my kids. Through the ups and downs... Gotta remember all of it.

I'll keep ya updated on the house business. Looks like I'll just be on my toes this week waiting for that phone call that says to come sign your life away.

Play time!

Although it IS October now... and technically we should maybe be wearing a light jacket. We have still enjoyed the cooler weather... still in tank tops and shorts of course. I know, I know, we (I) complain that its 110 degrees outside in the summer, and when God finally blesses us with 80 degree weather, we (I) just keep on complainin. (Lord forgive me, and THANK YOU for the cooler weather.)

We have enjoyed going outside and playing in the mornings. I would love to take them on a walk and get some exercise, but I have yet to figure out how to push a double stroller and a single stroller. Hello triple stroller??? No thanks.

Madelynn did her own make-up. Isn't it just lovely??

Chalkin. That is a (lovely) picture of me... don't I look fantastic?? Nice and thin.

Little girl was sittin in the car eatin chalk.

Picture just doesn't do the make up justice. The concealer perfectly lined her eyebrow.

My little mister has been needing more, wanting more, he's ready to explore the world. So our first step to discovering the world is something to look at.

He really, REALLY enjoyed this little play mat. Neither of the girls really cared to much about laying under one of these things so I never really used the one I had, so I got rid of it. Stetson really likes to be held, so for him to lay under here and look at everything, and talk, and smile is kinda a big deal for him. Well worth going out and buying one!

Oh my sakes alive!!! I know I carried this guy for 34 1/2 weeks and I gave birth to him after 2 weeks of bedrest and almost losing my life for him.... and I know he is a part of me forever and for always but YOU cannot tell me he isn't just about the most adorable, precious little piece of baby boy you ever saw???

mmhhhh... I mean look at those long, dark eyelashes, and those eyes just pierce my heart and make it melt. I said it once, and I'll say it again, I feel sorry for this boys wife.

Everyone has been saying he looks like Nat... and I just honestly don't see it. I dont think he looks like me either... but I just cannot figure out who he is... until this picture:

Hello Nat!! I will admit tho, he does have my eyes on Nat's face.

So here we have it-

Madelynn- all me. with Nat's body structure.

Payton- all Nat. with my body structure

Stetson- Nat with my eyes... not sure about a body structure yet.

ok, so maybe I'm weird for caring?? Its just fun to me. Like the pupmkin jammies.

Pumpkin Butts.

We bought this little pumpkin outfit back when I was pregnant with Madelynn... and its one of those things that we've been able to pass down to all the kids.

Madelynn- 3 months

Payton- 2 months

Stetson- 2 1/2 months

I know, I know, I'm silly about this kinda stuff. But I just think its fun to see that all 3 kids have worn it. Sadly, this will be the first and only time Stetson will be able to wear it. Looks like I waited a little to long to pull it out for him and his little toes are all crunched up in there. If my memory serves me right I believe that we had the same exact issue with Payton girl. Madelynn on the other hand wore it a month before pumpkin season... and a month after. Not to mention she is about a month older than the other 2 in the pictures.

Anyways... On a more serious note, Just wanted to ask for prayers. I am feeling pretty overwhelmed right now... to say the least.