My little flower

It seems like every time I turn around here lately, I'm thinking this about Payton. She is constantly changing and each day is becoming her own little self..... Its like watching a beautiful flower bloom.

 Having the girls as close as they are, its easy to get caught up in them being the same, liking the same things, wanting to wear the same clothes... etc. Simply, just as life goes, she has always mimicked her big sister and been the "shadow."... and I think a smidgen of me was a little concerned that she wasn't gonna be her own self.... if that makes sense. Payton just has that personality, like her mama, of slipping into the background and going with the flow of life without having a say so in much. Shy, quiet, introvert.

I'm getting to a point where I am catching myself only asking Madelynn's opinion on a matter.... like which plate do you want?? What do you wanna wear?? eat?? drink?? Now I'm trying extra hard to let Payton get her say so in the matter and its just been plain 'ol pleasant to watch her become this pretty little independent girl.

I think Madelyn going to school and Payton getting her own time has been good for her. Even though she misses her sister dearly, I see that good things are coming from this for Payton as well as Madelynn. she's always got her own opinion, and I'm glad to see her speaking up and making her voice known. She's learning new things and is slowly but surely learning her colors. I just love her squeaky little voice and everything about her!!

Sooo I guess this is a rather monumental thing for me, seeing my little girl going away from the way I am... cuz honestly, I wouldn't wish an extremely shy introvert on anyone! I've prayed that my kids would be the opposite of me cuz the way I am is a daily battle for me. I am constantly working on myself and working through "issues" I have as an extreme introvert. Yes, God made me the way I am. No, I'm not "dissing" myself. I've accepted who I am. I love me for me. and that's that! We all have our "hangups" and thats mine. 

P.S.... She has the most awesome bed head EVER!!!!!!