Some BIG news

Well well well, where do I even begin?!?! Our life has turned upside down and round and round. First off moms day out went well. A lot better than I thought it would! Madelynn did just fine when I left her and Payton cried for a second and was over it. Both of their teachers said they did great! Madelynn apparently didn't do to fantastic in the potty department but with 1 teacher and umpteen toddlers guess I can't expect to much. Apparently she said it had been a crazy day and that next week should be better. Lets hope, because she is doing soooo good at home. I would go ahead and dub her potty trained at home. Now we just gotta work on walking out the front door.

While the girls were there on Tuesday, I was in the middle of getting my hair cut and I got a phone call. Not the kinda phone call that you wanna get while sitting in the chair, getting a nice relaxing hair cut. I know what your thinking, who actually answers their phone when they're getting a hair cut?!?! For some reason (GOD) she told me to go ahead and answer it since she was working on the back of my hair. It was Nathaniel, and he had a thrill about his voice. He proceeds to tell me how he just got a phone call for a job that he had applied for about 2 years ago. He has been in touch with the potential job throughout the 2 years but it has just never worked out. The job is in New Mexico, and I need to make a decision, right then and there as to if he can tell him yes or no. Not cool. Not something you wanna remotely think about when your 9 weeks from having a new born baby. Since this is something that we have been praying about for awhile now, I knew that it was an answer from God and I didn't really have a choice as to what I told him.

God answered our prayers and our needs, maybe not exactly what I wanted.... but Its in His hands, and He knows what He is doing by moving us away from our families to New Mexico. We are excited to see what the future holds for us there. So many doors have been closed in the past that we just looked at each other and asked WHY??? But, now it all makes sense as to why. I know that it is so relieving to Nat to not have to even remotely worry about financially supporting his 3 kids.. and that to me is worth it all.

The job is with a company called Pason. It is oil field stuff. Nat has a brother and a sister that live down there so we will not be alone and for that I am so thankful! The week of the 12, we (me and the girls) will move back out to our house out in Mertzon, to save some money up for a home in NM. On the 18th (I think) of July, Nat will leave for a week of orientation in CO. (which I'm jealous about, why can't I go?!?! Even sitting in a hotel room in CO for a week is good enough for me.) and then from there, he will be in New Mexico training. So the girls and I will be here alone for about a month until the baby is born. Once he is born, we'll pack the rest of us up and head to NM. Know what that means?? Another move, in the hot summer, and I'm pregnant again, and on top of this Dejavu from last summer, I will be alone, without my husband. SCARY!! I know that I will have tons and tons of help form my family but its just not the same as daddy. He'll be back to visit on his days off and will be back for when the baby is born. So we are hoping ad praying (as much as I dont want to) that he will stay in until the scheduled C-section date. So Nat can be sure and be here for the birth and not have to make a 4 hour trip in 2 hours and potentially miss the birth.

So in the next 3 weeks we have with Nat, he has to finish work at my parents house, we have to pack up our house, move all of our stuff to storage, move the girls and I and necessities to Metzon. Throw an early birthday party for my 3 family members so Nat won't miss the girls' birthdays, not go into labor, prepare my mind for not having my husband around for a month, and not go into labor. Just thinking of doing all this makes me tired and makes me wanna crawl in a hole till its all over with!!

Anyways... so prayers are much needed for our family right now. It will be tough I can tell you that, but I know that I can do it. Nat couldn't be more excited for the opportunity, I am the one who struggles with it. I am slowly warming up to the idea. As you can see, it has taken me 5 days to accept it enough to blog about it. :)

Here are a few pictures that I have been promising for the past several blogs. I have been a picture taking slacker lately!!!

Spaghetti faces!

Payton has gotten to where when I get the camera out, she smiles, or make a goofy face.

Beautiful baby girl.

this picture cracks me up. Madelynn discovered she can get her chair and unlock, and open the door... and apparently everyone in the household was going to go with her.

goofy face from Payton

and at last, here is my little 10 month old doing her walking thing. She is now to the point where she is trying to run! It is hilarious!!! She is about 50/50 walking and crawling. She is almost there.

So that was a lot of Payton, not because I love her more... but simply because Madelynn usually runs and hides when I get my camera out. :)

Update on life

Madelynn- I'm proud to report, is doing very well with potty training!! I would like to eat my words right now and NOT suggest the 3 day potty training thing. I just honestly think that it is to much for momma and for the toddler. Maybe when they're way older it might work... but I am going to go ahead and not agree with the idea. Oh well, live and learn I guess. Most days are pretty good.. usually only 1 or 2 accidents. She most of the time tells me that she needs to go potty, she even told me the other day when we were driving in the car!!! We stopped at a public restroom (SICK!!!!!!!!) and she actually pottied! I was sooooo proud of her. I told Nat that from now on, were gonna get just a small, cheap little potty chair and keep it in the back of the suburban for times like that. Yesterday we stayed out pretty much all day and she didn't have an accident until around 7 or so, and that was at my parents house, which I have decided is going to be the next big hoo-rah to get over. There is just way to much fun and craziness going on at mimi and papa's house for her to stop and think about pottying. I am so proud of her. I still get a tad frustrated from time to time, but I think we are in the long stretch.

Payton- Was 10 months yesterday!!! Seriously?!? I feel like I JUST blogged about 9 months. I keep re-counting the months cuz it does not feel like another month has passed. June has flown by!!!! Anyways... not much has really changed from 9 months to 1o other than her standing up and walking whenever she gets the chance. She still crawls majority of the time but walks as absolute much as her little feet will take her. I imagine it will be in the next couple weeks that she'll take off walking. Kinda crazy to think that Madelynn didn't even fathom doing such a thing as walking until she was 16 months.. and now here is little Payton who will more than likely be walking before she is 1. I have a good video of her walking and some pictures, but I left my camera at my preants house so I'll maybe someday share it.

Nat- Had a wonderful fathers day yesterday!! I surprised him with a new pair of boots which was a hit!!! Remember this post about how he ruins EVERYTHING I try to surprise him with... well on Saturday night, he got this wild hair and started talking to me about he wanted some new boots (which he has been needing for awhile, but why talk to me about it now?!?!) and wanted us to go to Blairs to look at some boots and I was like NOOOOOOO!!! Anyways, after about a 2 hour conversation about boots and what color boots he wanted and me talking him out of wanting new boots at that given moment. I ended up being able to surprise him on Sunday morning.

Me- I made it to 28 weeks yesterday, which means I am in the last, and final trimester!!!!! The long stretch. I hope it flies by! The little boy seems to be growing great and is still very active. I just love the feeling of an active baby. That is one thing I miss so much when I'm not pregnant. I had to do the glucose test last week and it once again came back high so I had to go back and do the long, 3 hour test. All the test results came back normal so that was a huge relief! I start to go to the Dr. every 2 weeks now. That is always exciting cuz it means your that much closer to the end. It is also a pain because having 2 kids at home means having to find someone to watch them for all those appointments. I have lots of Birthday stuff to plan. Nat and Madelynn's in July, and Paytons in August. Once the baby is born, we'll have birthdays in July x2, August, September, and October. Were gonna have to take out a loan for birthdays every year! :)

The girls start at moms day out tomorrow and it has been hard for me to think about it. Why in the heck is it so hard to leave your kids?!?! I am looking forward to the break every week, but my gosh, why can't it be easier than it is?!?! I am hoping that it just goes fantastic and it will be easier from here on out. I am anxious to see how Madelynn does, not only with being left with someone she doesn't know and a bunch of kids... but how she does with potty training. I really really REALLY hope that her teacher will work with her and not just let it go. I have seen both kinds of teachers in my life. Anyways... maybe I'll have time tomorrow to blog again.. or maybe not. I haven't totally decided what I want to do with my time. I am thinking about getting started on birthday shopping!!

Hopefully there won't be such a long gap before I blog next and hopefully I'll find my camera soon and you'll have pictures and video to look forward to. :)

M.I.A.

Thats me. For 6 days I have had no life. For 6 days I have pretty much stayed locked up in my house. For 6 days I have been poured my blood, sweat and tears (this more than the others) into potty training!!!!!!!!

I NEED Madelynn to be potty trained by the time the baby comes that way we DO NOT have 3 in diapers. I figured no one else was doin it but me so I better get on the ball... cuz the further along I get in this pregnancy, the worse off, less energized I'm gonna be! Kinsey told me about this 3 day potty training deal... and it turned out to be a pretty ok thing. If you know someone that may be potty training soon, or may not, I think every momma should definitely at least check it out and see if its something you would be interested in doing. She (3 day potty trainig lady) doesn't define what she means by in 3 days, your child will be potty trained. If it means on day 4, you can walk out the front door and not worry a second about them having any more accidents then no, sounds to good to be true.. and that is to good to be true. If she means by day 3 your child will know when she needs to potty and will have few to no accidents.. BUT you still have to work your ever loving heart out working with them. Then yes, I would say its well worth it. www.3daypottytraining.com. I'll forewarn you, it is hard core. Your life will literally stop for 3 (or more) days, and you might go a little crazy.

Basically, in a nut shell, you do not do anything for 3 (or more) days but follow your little potty train-ee around all day long and catch the accidents and run them to the potty. It is exhausting!!!!!!! Maybe a little more so for me than the average mom. You don't "try" to potty. You GO potty. She pretty much tells you to get everything in order before you start, laundry, cleaning, possible childcare for other children (which I strongly recommend) and even suggests NOT COOKING DINNER... You bet I milked that one. (LOL).... and just from experience, you literally can't do anything if its done right. Dishes set, beds remain un-made, floors go un-vacuumed, laundry stays dirty, Heck- I even forgot to feed the dog (at her normal time). Of course, come night time when Madelynn goes to bed. I do everything that I would have done throughout the day but didn't have time to do.

I kept a little record of it that way I could have it to look back to with future train-ees.

Tuesday- Madelynn and I went on a potty date. It consisted of talking about how awesome it is to go in the BIG potty. We got a new awesome bus likyur (buzz lightyear) potty chair. (Not sure if I have told you or not but Madelynn is obsessed with Toy Story right now. What better time than now when TS3 comes out??) We also got lots of potty prizes. Just cheap little fun things that Madelynn loves.

Wednesday- Woke up, ate breakfast and talked a lot about pottyin' and explained that today was the day that we were only going to wear big girl panties. Took the diaper off, threw it away (she suggests throwing ALL diapers away... but having a child in the same size diaper, I wasn't about to throw any away)!!! and explained that we were done with diapers and only sister could wear them cuz she was a baby.

-Put our first pair of panties, 10:00

-From morning until nap time (2:00) she only had 2 accidents and never went in the potty.

-Woke up from 3 hour nap dry. Still not going in the potty.

-From about 5pm-7pm she probably had 20 accidents. Still not going in the potty. It was horribly frustrating and so tempting to put a diaper on her. I didn't.

-Around 7ish, she FINALLY went in the potty. From then until bed time, she pottied once more and had several more accidents.

-Pottied once before bed. Went to bed.

Thursday- Woke up at 7:30 DRY!!! Daddy took her to the potty, she went.

-Came back in bed with me. Slept till 10, woke up saying potty. Went in the potty.

-Around noon I could just tell she needed to go poo-poo. Went in the bathroom and did her business first try! YEA!!!! Can't get much better than that.

-About 1 or so she released ALL of her pee. Not just little tinkles. (Thats a big step!!!) and has ever since then.

-Has had all of 5 little accidents today. Little meaning not full blown, but little leaks here and there.

-Didn't have any accidents after nap time(4:00, which she woke up dry from.)

-Pottied twice before bed. Bed at 9:30

Friday- Woke up @ 9:00. DRY!! Went potty.

-Potty right before nap. Woke up dry. went potty.

-5:15 Started acting like she needed to go poopoo. Ran to the potty. Did her thing on the potty!!

-Only had 1 accident all day!!!!!!! Went in the potty many many times.

We HAD to get outta the house so that her and I could stay sane so we did a test of outta the house pottying and went over to my moms house and basically she did nothing. Wouldn't go potty... and didn't until the next day around noon. So I'm not sure if that totally just threw her off or what.

Days 4, 5, and 6 Have been completely AWFUL!!!!!!!! Still having very few accidents.. but it is complete torture to get her to go potty. She KNOWS where, and when she needs to potty, But she won't tell me she needs to potty. I have to watch her every single little move and follow her around until I see that she needs to potty. By day 3, I figured out her potty signs and when she needs to go just by watching her. She is completely rebelling. She is acting out like she never has before, and is not the pleasant little Madelynn we all know and love. She cries and kicks and screams when I set her on the potty. She ignores me. I have been stretched to my limits as a pregnant lady. A big thing in this 3 day potty training is love and patience. Of which I have ZERO of. But what do you do?? There is no way in heaven were going backwards and putting a diaper back on her. I just am really hoping that once she gets past this rebellious crap, she will have got it.

Anyways..... Just another little step in this thing called parenting. Why can't they just stay 18 months forever!?!?! Such a fun age without a care in the world. Got the paci, got the diaper and life is good. Pray for us!! I know that I make it harder on her getting so frustrated and not having any patience. But, like I said, I have been stretched to my limits! I definitely need a fresh wind.

I am very proud of her and how far she has come in 6 days! I just hope things turn for the better really soon so that I can have my Madelynn back.. only a big girl Madelynn, in big girl panties.

And I must tell you about my little baby Payton!!!! On Wednesday, she stood up in the middle of the living room and walked to me! It was about 4 steps but oh my was it wonderful!! If she could calm down her excitement.. she could walk a mile. But, she gets so excitedly overwhelmed that she cant control her body. Its funny. I have a feeling she will be walking in no time. She so badly wants to be like Madelynn. You can just see it in her eyes when they are playing. She crawls so fast and still can't catch up with Madelynn and she gets so upset about it. I'm so excited. I can't wait to see them running around together.

A chore? or a privilege??

It has been a C-R-A-P-P-Y week here at the Rose household. For several different reasons. Hence the reason I have stayed away from blogging. Many a times I have sat down and started to blog but just couldn't torture you with what I REALLY wanted to sit down and {rant and rave} write about.

I don't know about you, but when pregnant with both girls, I had pelvic bone pain really bad. With Madelynn, it didn't start till about the last 2 weeks of pregnancy. With Payton, it started about 34-ish weeks. It is a horrendous pain, and nothing (that I have found) can relieve or help it. Sitting makes it worse, and doing anything, like walking, cleaning, laundry, standing makes it worse than worse. Laying flat on your back is the best relief. Tylenol schmilenol, its worthless to me.

With THIS pregnancy it is a complete NIGHTMARE full of aches and pains. Its this ^ pain x 20. I am a total mess with the thought of going 13 more weeks like this!!!!!!!!! I cannot do anything at all or I will not sleep at night because I will be in so much pain. So since I don't have the choice to not do anything, I don't sleep at night and I am in excruciating pain all day long, and all night long. Pain to the point of tears. Not to mention, to add to this pregnancy I now am having sciatic nerve pain. Which as anyone who has ever experienced that, pregnant or not pregnant, knows that that can basically ruin your life!!! I know I am complaining and I'm terribly sorry about that but I just gotta tell you that to start what I really wanted to blog about.

Anyways... so all this pain that has been going on, I keep off my feet as much as possible to keep the pain to a minimum, but like I said, there really is no real relief for it. I am irritable to say the least. Nat kinda slapped me around a little (not REALLY slapped me around, but told me something I didn't wanna hear and I took it as verbal abuse.) He told me how horrible I have been treating the girls. (ok.. not really verbal abuse. Just honesty.) and I really had to check myself and apologize to my girls. Then I got to thinkin about the week, and how it has gone and he was right, I haven't been the mom I usually am, the mom that I strive to be. In my defense, when your in pain, you don't see straight, you don't think straight... But, it is what I have to deal with until this baby is born so I have got to take this and make the best of it. Instead of being annoyed with my girls while I'm trying to sit and relax, how 'bout I take the opportunity of a lot of sitting to play and laugh with them. To enjoy them every second I can. To take in and cherish there little smiles. To sit down and watch Toy Story 48 times a day with my little Toy Story lady. To consider it a PRIVILEGE and not a chore. Sure, some days motherhood is a chore... But I really need to work on seeing my life as a privilege right now. So many people can't even have their own babies and just look at me, all I have to do is take birth control and I get pregnant. So many people have to drop there kids off at day care every single day because they can't afford to not work, I can stay home. No, we don't live high on the hog, so to speak, we do without and I am perfectly happy with that cuz I get to do what I wanna do every day of my life!!! So I am challenging myself for the next 13 weeks to make the best outta this no fun time of life.

Now that I got that outta my system. I'll be 26 weeks on Sunday and other than the severe pain he is causing me, everything is going fantastic!!! He is a movin little guy and I have a sneaky little feeling he is big. At least bigger than my girls were.

Here are a few pictures of our week.

Ok, I lied, for some reason my computer is being rather strange today so it is not letting me up load my pictures. I'll keep trying and will have a picture post for you next time!