One of those days...

Do you ever have those days where you feel like you have accomplished so much but then you look at your house and question why you feel that way??

This is what my living room looks like at the moment... But, I have got alot done on my "To do this week" list. Thankfully, I was able to let her spend some time with Sharon so I could get some stuff done. She hasn't seen her NaNa in a long time so they needed some quality time together. Now she is sleeping peacefully in her bed... Its 5:45 and she is napping... scary thing. BUT. my goodness gracious if this kid would have slept last night, I wouldnt be letting her sleep right now. Like I said in my last post, we have been having ALOT of trouble getting her to sleep good. Her and I did not go to sleep till 3 in the morning and then we both slept till 11. So we are sooooo thrown off in the sleep department. Hopefully these next few days of going to town and having stuff to do will put us back to normal. We'll see. 

Tomorrow morning, Mr. Jedd (new nephew) will be making his arrival so we will be at the hospital bright and early!! I cant wait.  I must go awaken my child and straighten up my house and start to think about dinner.

A solution??

To our sleep problem...

Since we have done away with the bottle, Madelynn has had a hard time falling asleep and then sleeping through the night. Its been rough for her not having that before bed time bottle, and its been rough for me with these sleepless nights. Just a couple days ago, she had a peaceful falling asleep and then she slept all night long. When I went in and got her in the morning, she had one pacy in her mouth and one in her hand... apparently there was a left over pacy that got lost in her bed and she found it! And she was absolutely thrilled about it. Every night since then, she goes to bed and finds that pacy and when she wakes up in the morning, she still has it in her hand. Its funny but I think that it has helped her kinda get through this.

Like father, like daughter...

In case you dont know Nat to well, he is a big kid at heart!! He loves to do kid stuff, and loves to have fun!!

see what I mean??

....

and we wont go here... ha.

Anyways.. Have I ever told you how much I wanna hold a little itty bitty baby again??? Don't look at old pictures like this cuz it makes it ten times worse. 

8 weeks to go.

Here's what we have been up to....

this is what you do for fun when you live 30 minutes from society.

sweet cousin kisses.

oh boy...

Us.

ok, this is long... but I have been wanting to write this up for myself and finally had the opportunity. Enjoy.

I started playing homeschool basketball in 7th grade and ever so often the guys would come over to the girls practice when they were through. (Nat was on the boys team) I never thought anything of it... To me, boys werent a priority. So that was when we first saw each other.... I was told later that when he saw me he was in awe of me and thought I was the most beautiful thing on the face of the earth.. which, 7th grade is the MOST awkward time in a girls life and lets be honest, probably not her most flattering. Who knows how true that is. :) Any ways... so time went on and he never said a word to me and I never said a word to him. We would see each other at games and ever so often at practices. Eventually, the girls basketball coach quit and so the guys coach (who was Nats dad, and now my father in law) took over the girls team. So we would practice together and eventually, I kinda began to notice him. I always kinda thought he was just a goofy 'ol boy and that he really liked girls cuz he was always flirting, which I later learned that he was just such a sweet guy and helped anyone with anything. But in the mean time, he was a flirter and all the girls on the team would talk about how Nat flirted sooooo much. 

Still nothin... for years we never spoke but saw each other several times a week. I met a girl at church who was homeschooled and I got her to play basketball and we became close friends. She was a bit boy crazy so she was always talking with the guys.. Her and I started to hang out with one of the guys who just happened to be Nats good friend. Me and this guy kinda "dated" if you can even call it that (just a dumb stupid time in my life) But really, not so stupid cuz its what got Nat and I to talk. So it would always be the 4 of us hangin out. Me, my friend, this other guy and Nat. We had lots of good times together. 

I eventually kinda felt like this Nat guy might have feelings for me. I got this from little things that he would do for me and say to me. He made me feel more special than this other guy that I was "dating."  We eventually weren't together anymore so it kinda made things awkward for the 4 of us to hang out. So we stopped but, Nat and I had kinda developed a friendship over these past few months of hangin out, so we would still talk at basketball games and practices. I still had a hint in my head that he might kinda like me. Over time, we would go places together and I really started to like this guy! He was sooooo sweet and he opened the doors for me (even when we werent dating)  he payed for everything we did, and the best thing of all is that he respected me. He was the definition of a gentlemen and I LOVED that. He made me feel like I was the most beautiful, special most important person on the face of the earth.  I knew deep down inside that there was something very special about this guy.

At this point, there was no denying that he liked me and there was no denying that I liked him.  We always went to Buffalo Wild Wings, that was just our place. One evening while we were there, the topic turned to marriage and I was shakin like a leaf. (I was the most nervous, freaked out person when it came to the opposite sex.) He told me something that absolutely devastated me and shook me up pretty bad. Basically, I wasn't the one for him and we were just gonna be really good friends. I got really quiet and upset but tried so very hard not to let it show, after all, we were only friends. I later learned that I was VERY obvious in the fact that I was upset and that was his sure sign that I liked him. JERK!! Anyways... I got in my car and I balled my eyes out and I called my friend to tell her the news. I kinda shut myself down after that and had to turn my feelings for him off. We would still hang out but it just wasn't the same. He was going on a trip for a few weeks with his family and I figured after that, we probably wouldnt talk much. But I was so wrong. We started texting each other and racked up some pretty nice texting bills that he so generously payed. 

It was January 6, 2006 (he was on his family vacation) around midnight I was layin in my bed thinkin  about him and wondering why on earth God would put these feeling in me and then slam the door in my face. We were kinda texting back and forth and things turned kinda serious and he told me (yes, over text... LOSER) (I still tease him about it to this day) that he loved me and that he had feelings for me and wanted to take things further and wanted to know if I would be his girl friend. WHAT?!?! IS THIS REAL??? ARE YOU SERIOUS?? ARE YOU PLAYING A JOKE ON ME?? YES!!!!!!!!!!!! We had been best friends for a year and I had been waiting (but never thought he would) for him to do something cuz I just knew (even tho he broke my heart into a million trillion pieces just a few months before) that he was the one for me!!! I went in the bathroom and threw up (not even kidding) cuz I was so excited, freaked out, scared, and nervous. I woke my sister up and told her the news and she was soo excited for me. She had been on this roller coaster ride with me cuz she knew about everything in our relationship. I couldnt sleep after that. WE WERE DATING! It finally happened!! I couldnt stop thinking He is my boyfriend... omg...

He came back from his trip and we had our first little date (and many MANY more to follow) at Sonic. He brought me flowers and a little box full of goodies that he had collected for me while on his trip. We had ice cream and just talked. He had my heart and I was in love with this boy.  I was sooo terribly afraid that he was going to try and kiss me on the first date and that would have freaked me out!! He didnt and I was so relieved. 

We did everything together. We went to the movies atleast once a week. He took me out to eat atleast once a day. He bought me whatever I wanted and then some. We wold go on walks on the river and talk. We spent ALOT of time walking around Wal Mart talking. We would sit at sonic all the time and just talk and get to know each other. We spent every waking moment together. He would get off work and come to my house and we would eat dinner and then go do one of the above. He was head over heels for me and would do anything for me. We would go to late late movies and he would have to get up early the next morning and go to work. We went to church together. We were in love, there was no doubt about it! 

October  7, 2006 after 10 months of dating (it was my birthday.) He told me he had this whole evening planned out for us. I later learned he had no earthly idea what he was going to do. (Isnt it funny the things you learn AFTER you get married)?? We went and ate at Fuentes and then we went to the dam and walked. I thought it was kinda strange but ok... We walked for forever and then he started talking serious (I kinda started thinkin here...) telling me that these past few months have been the best of his life (He is so going to propose!!)  and he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and he stopped and pulled the ring out of his pocket and put it on my finger. Uh.. my heart melted and I was speechless! I eventually mustered up a yes...

In a few short months, we will celebrate our 2 year anniversary... Im sure that you will hear the rest of the story then!

Fathers Day

Was a great day!!! Nat makes a special day for him VERY hard to celebrate. He looks at everything like its just another day... Me on the other hand, I LOVE birthdays and holidays and I wanna celebrate the heck out of 'em. So were way opposite in that area! But, I told him I dont care what you think about fathers day just being another day, Im gonna do special stuff for you and your gonna be quiet and accept it (in the nicest way possible of course)... so I made him breakfast and we just hung out at home together. We plan to (but havent yet) get Nat a grill for fathers day. He is super excited about it!! I am too!! :)

Good morning daddy! Happy fathers day!

I love these two!!

We eventually made our way over to visit with our dads and wish them a happy fathers day. We had some good food over at my parents house... man was it good. 

Proud papa right there! This is what makes fathers day worth your while. :) 

Love this picture!

Her hair is FINALLY long enough to put a little clippy in!! I am sooooo excited. Its growing so fast!

Man these kids are cute! 

Dont you wanna squeeze these chunky little legs??

In other news. You know how I said Madelynn likes to wake up at 7 and I dont understand why cuz she is super cranky all day??? She (for 4 days now) has slept till 10 every day.. Now thats my kinda sleepin right there!! She is spoiling me even more. 

My mom had surgery this morning and the surgery was successful and she is in a room now! The girls have come out to stay with us for a few days while she is in the hospital so my dad can stay with her. So I am off for the next few days. :) Im glad she loves these girls. 

ok, so Nat just walked through the front door which is a scary thing seeing as we live thirty minutes from town so he cant just stop by... I asked him what in the world he was doing home so early and he said "I got fired." My heart sank, cuz this has actually happened before and thats just not a good feeling. Then he busted out laughing and said JUST KIDDING! Ugh.. I nearly went into labor!! Turns out the rest of his stops are out here in Mertzon so he came home to eat lunch so we had a nice lunch together!! 

Its official! 

Payton Elizabeth 

and

Stetson James

Hallelujah!! We have agreed on 2 names and the baby is still on the inside. :) I was sure that we were gonna end up having this baby and HAVING to think of a name before we left the hospital. Nine weeks to go!

11 Months

Today my sweet little girl is 11 months old... and I am sure as you all know... I cant even believe another month has gone by.  She is getting bigger and bigger and bigger and she wont stop. That is a good thing I guess... Nat and I looked at each other today and I said she just isn't a baby anymore she's lookin more and more like a big girl. We were both thinkin the same thing. 

She crawls a thousand miles an hour and gets into everything... even got under the sink and ate soap. (better than her drinking bleach right???) HA!! Dont worry, I do plan on safety proofing my house. 

She's not walkin yet, BUT I think that she is a little more interested in walking than she ever was in crawling... we'll see. 

Still no teeth. BUT, she eats like a PIG, I swear sometimes she eats as much as a grown person. When we eat, I ALWAYS have to go back and get atleast seconds, if not thirds for her. She ate a whole (lg) can of mandarin oranges the other day at lunch time. I always stop feeding her at some point cuz I think maybe she might be full, but this time I was curious as to how much more she would eat, and she never stopped.   If we eat out, she gets her own meal or she will eat every last bit of mine! Today she actually ate a 4 pack nuggets kids meal and she finished off my burger. It baffles me that a little bitty petite girl can eat so much. 

She is officially off formula and on whole milk and today is day 2 of no bottle. She has done so good with it!! I am very proud of her! She is such an easy baby. I am sooo spoiled!! I keep prayin that this next baby will be just as good and as easy as she has been.

We have had a change of plans.. new girl name is Payton (go ahead and laugh, Kinsey) :) still dont have a middle name. Nat and I both decided today that we really wanted a little girl. I have from the start but do more and more every day, but we will take either or and will love it to death. Whatever it is is VERY stubborn and VERY active. It kinda freaks me out all the weird things I feel. I never experienced anything like this with Madelynn. Sometimes it feels like its tickling me on the inside, if that makes sense, like I can feel little fingers. Its crazy! I'll be interested to see the difference in the way they act outside knowing how they both were on the inside. Make sense??

ok. So I have been trying to upload a video for you to watch.. but im not sure if I am the issue or this computer is the issue or blogger.. Im goin with blogger tho. SO... I am terrible sorry. I will try again tomorrow cuz Its sooo cute! I am giving up and going to bed tho. Sorry for no pictures.. I have been slackin in that area. 

Whole bunch of nothin

Do you ever write a long post and convince yourself its dumb so you erase all of it?? I do that quiet often. Like when I really dont have anything to talk about  but feel the urge to blog. 

-Anyways... last night was a horrible night and I am not looking forward to going through the newborn sleepin thing yet.

This was VERY short lived but I thought it was cute that she had fallen asleep on her pillow.

-Madelynn likes to wake up at 7 on the dot but then is horribly cranky ALL day long... why??

- I am in the 3rd trimester tiredness and its KILLIN me!!!!

-Madelynn is almost 11 months and that means that she is almost a year.

-We FINALLY got a new fridge. Like a year and a half ago, we bought a brand new fridge from Lowes. The price was knocked down cuz it had been repaired. (I wouldnt advise you to do that, cuz you cant purchase any warranty on it.)  It was a good fridge but right at the year mark, the compressor went out and so for about 6 months now we have had this..

(dont mind the cute little nugget head on the left) My father in law was gracious in letting us borrow this for the amount of time he did. But, it was hard to downsize and to relearn how to grocery shop so that we can have enough food to last us but have such little space to put it in... I did it tho. 

Now, I have to fill this baby up...

It is very empty.  But, God provided for us at the perfect time!! Now if He will provide groceries to fill 'er up. :) New job paychecks are rough the first month or so!! We also got a new stove... its just black and matchy to the fridge. You can kinda see it to the left. So thats exciting to me! Our old stove was just that.. old. It was time for a new one. I'll tell ya... and im sure most of you know this... it is hard getting used to a new stove!!! I have burnt a few things. :)

-Swimmin with the cuz

Cash likes chicken. HA!

Soon and very soon this little guy will have a baby brother!! Cant wait to meet him! (even tho the last few months I still have to wait will just be that much more torturous. :)

-Madelynn is crawling over to me with her 'I pooped' whine... gotta get on that then hopefully VERY soon after that  a nap??

Football Fun!

Sorry about the lack of blogging... just not much goin on around here. Last night we took Madelynn to the Stampede game. It was fun!! She really enjoyed being able to yell her little heart out without her mother telling her to SHHHH!! :) She also got to eat her  a good ol hot dog for dinner. No fruit, no vegetables, nothin healthy bout it... She very much liked it! She got tired towards the end and fell asleep on me and her baby sibling did not like that one bit. It kicked and pushed and who knows what else to try and get whatever was layin on it off (wouldnt it sound so much better if I could be like... whatever was laying on her... I think about this often. Dont take advantage of knowing... him or her) :) anyways... it was very unpleasant for me, I was pretty much sure that at any given moment a little hand would come punching out of my belly. Ok, that would be WEIRD!!! I had to give her to Nat cuz It got so horribly uncomfortable. I guess were startin the jealousy thing early....

this is Madelynn looking at termite todd, trying to figure out what the heck it was.

Ok, I will have EVERYONE out there know that I faced my deepest darkest (dumbest) fear to get this picture. I am terribly scared of these huge mascot things... Go ahead and laugh. It is a fear that I have had pretty much my whole life. I can remember going to Chuck E. Cheeses when I was younger and being horrified every time. I can even remember a little incident in the bathroom.... but we wont go there. Some people are scared of clowns, or the dark but in all seriousness, I really DO NOT like these things. Nat was in one of these mascots last year and it still freaked me out. I threatened him with his life and told him that if he came near me I would divorce him. I also want you to know that Nat refused to get this picture for me so I didnt have to go near it. What a mean guy! 

Now that we all know a new dumb fact about Mara... We handed her to the bug and I snapped the picture... didnt even try to get her to look at me or smile or anything (I dont think she would have looked at me anyways cuz she was very intrigued by this huge monster of a thing) cuz I was a little bit freaking out.. then he gave her back to Nat and kissed her... I cringed. DONT GET THAT CLOSE TO MY CHILD!!!! but I kept it inside and just smiled.. I really dont wanna pass this fear onto my child. It was all ok, and he didnt try to eat me or smother me or give me a hug or even a high 5. When we walked off I whispered to Nat "aren't you proud of me for facing my fears"? He looked at me with a big grin and said yes I am,  You did good. Good words to hear.  

Ok.. ya'll can stop laughing now.. Im done. 

ANYWAYS!! Here are a few pictures from our life the past few days...

Cuz i never have a picture of me and her.

Pretty lady in her new hat.

what happens when you turn your head for 2 seconds

Im sure she is thinking.. another picture mom???

Dr. visit

Not to much goin on around here today. Madelynn and I are just hangin out.

I had a Dr. apt today. It was the glucose test where you drink the nasty drink and they draw your blood to test for Gest. Diabetes. Well, it came back high so I have to go in on Thursday and do a 3 hour test. I'll have to drink the drink again and get my blood drawn every 3 hours. (Just in case you didnt know all of that.) Which I am not to thrilled about. I had to do this test when I was pg with Madelynn, but Nat was able to go with me so it wasn't to terribly lonely and boring.  This time im on my own... guess I'll find a good book and take it with me (blechhhh!!) Everyone told me that my test came back high with Madelynn cuz I ate breakfast before I went, so this time, I did not eat anything but still... I just hope that in the end its negative like it was with Madelynn.

Anyway, 28 weeks and counting! 

and here's the little lady 

San Antonio

This weekend, Madelynn and I went to San Antonio for my cousins baby shower with my mom and 2 sisters.  We went shoppin and YES...  I bought Madelynn clothes... I havent bought the girl clothes in probably a month. I tried to convince Nat that she needed more clothes but it didnt work. :) Oh well, it was time in my mind. I also bought myself a bathing suit.. something that I have been looking for a long time now. I walked into the maternity store and there it was... everything I have ever wanted in a maternity bathing suit. And, It was on sale! 

Swimmin!!

Today, we FINALLY got to use Madelynns little pool that we got for her before she was even born!! We had a fun day!!

She really likes to put her face under the water for just a second, you can see her do it.

and here's a few smiles for you...

this is what happens when your sister works at chick-fil-a :)

and here is some drunken (way past due for a nap) pictures... 

We are thinkin she is gonna have curly hair. You might have to click it to make it bigger but you can see little bitty curly's.