Sweet

This afternoon, my mom came and picked up Madelynn and took her to Midland for Micalea's basketball game. She got home around 9:15 and Payton was already in bed. She had mumbled sister a couple of times and a little later, Payton had woke up and was crying so Madelynn looked up at me (I was busy ironing... like any good wife would be at 10 o'clock at night) and started jibber jabberin and ever so often she would say sister and she took off to Mine and Nats room (that is here P naps during the day) and she ran back out with this baffled look on her face and she got my attention and asked me to come and see. This is a common occurrence in our house. Any time P cries, Madelynn is very in tune to her and she will come and get my attention and make sure I know her sister is crying. So I went in my room and told her sister was sleeping in her crib because it is night night time for you guys, so she ran across the hall into there bedroom (keep in mind, this whole time Madelynn has a grin on her face from ear to ear.) and she ran over to P's crib and I picked her up and put her in there and they both just giggled and laughed and talked to each other in their secret language. After I got P outta her bed and brought her in the living, I put her in her bumbo on the floor and Madelynn brought her: a sippy cup, my water bottle, a toy, went and got a blanket and covered P up, went and got her favorite book and sat by Payton and flipped through the pages with her. Seriously nothing sweeter than that moment we got to watch. Uhhh it was the sweetest thing EVER! That was the first time they were away from each other and they both knew it!

I really haven't felt that they have 100% "clicked" as sisters. Duh Payton is only 5 months.. .and I didnt expect them to be playin barbies the day after we got home from the hospital... but tonight really showed me that they clicked... for sure!

I also learned how boring, and easy one kid is! Like seriously all afternoon I had nothing to do. No one to talk to me. Two kids is double the work, and double the tiredness, but its double the smile, double the love, double the fun!

Rolllllls

Oh my goodness! I must share these with you. My Madelynn was the rolly pollyist little thing you ever did see. Looking back at old pictures makes me realize how like tall Payton is and how she dont got the rolllls going on. Know what I mean???

Ugh... just look at that chubby little girl with rolls all over the place.

LOVE IT!!

Dont you wish rolls looked this good on us??? Sign me up.

and yes, I did take a picture of my little Madelynn's hiney end because I absolutely couldn't resist those rolls.

I am sad to report that since she has gotten older, and started walking, the rolls have one by one been drifting away and it has greatly saddened me.

Little Ms. Payton wasn't blessed with these voluptuous rolls.

Shes just got one on each leg for her momma. But thats ok. I still love the stinkin day lights outta her.

Just thinkin...

This morning in Sunday School, we were talking about how the Israelites crossed the Jordan river to go to Jericho and how they had to have a ton of faith to step in when God said to walk into the raging, flooded waters. One of the things said was do you feel like God is in a way, asking you to do the impossible... ya know, like step in the raging water and trust that He will calm the waters and that you wont be swept away, or eaten by a crocodile. I thought hmm... 3 children under the age of 2 is asking quite a bit form a person right??? I thought am I really trusting that God is gonna take care of us??? Financially, physically, mentally?? I'll admit that I do have some hard days. Some days I just wanna lay in bed all day and be left alone... and some days Im like YEA! I can do this, its gonna be fun and Im gonna get through it and God will take care of us. But I need to learn to trust him whole heatedly, every single day of my life. Another thing said was You may wonder why at this given moment in life... but you gotta remember that God sees the beginning, end, and the future. God knows how and if we can fit 3 car seats in my car, God knows if we will be able to buy a bigger vehicle. God knows where the money is gonna come from for us to buy another car seat. I am such an organized, gotta know whats gonna happen, when its gonna happen kinda person and not knowing where all this stuff we need is going to come from is hard for me to swallow. But God just very nicely reminded me this morning, Mara, I've got it all figured out. You just relax and enjoy your girls. It will be something that God will have to help me out with a lot in the days to come! Its not an easy thing for me too 100% give it up to God.

Teeth and Dog

Madelynn only has 4 teeth at the given moment.. where as most 18 month olds have a mouth full of teeth. Everyone has told me that she'll probably get them all at once... and sure enough, the day had come... and 5 of 'em are comin in! I feel sooo bad for her!! She is miserable!! Her nose is running like crazy, she is so sad. This time around of getting teeth, she has been more lovey and mellow rather than devilish. I think that makes it a little easier to feel sorry for her and comfort her rather than let her drive me crazy. =) On top of that she has some allergies goin on.. as does everyone else. So she has just been all around yuck for the past few days. Today she seems to be feeling a tad bit better so when she wakes up, were gonna run to the store and then maybe go to the park! The weather has been absolutely 100% wonderful!!! She jets out the door any time it opens and is upset when she has to come in... besides, we have yet to go to the park since she has started walking!! I am excited. We'll see if I can keep up with her and somehow or another hold Payton... or I guess I could say keep up with Payton also....

this girl is ready to get up and walk! She absolutely hates to lay down!! She is hard to hold because of this. She does not want you to hold her and feed her her bottle. She wants to do it herself! basically, what it all boils down to is, she wants you to put her down and she wants to run! Forget sitting up, forget crawling, forget walking, lets RUN!

We may, or may not have another pregnancy in our little family. Maggie (which is the dog in case you didnt know.) Has been in heat.. and as was with baby (previous dog) every single male dog in the neighborhood and then further, hangs around our house all day long. It is utterly annoying! Its extremely time consuming letting them out to potty and its just been a pain in the butt!! So after all of our efforts in keeping her away form them. We left them outside (stupid!!!!!) the other day when we went to my parent house... not thinking anything could get in the 6 ft fence. When we pulled up, we made sure that the climbing dog (mitsy) that can climb an 85 ft. fence was still in there. She was... then I said "it looks like there is 3 dogs in there." sure 'nuff right as it cam outta my mouth... out JUMPS the black and white collie. He just cleared the fence like it was nothin. Since then, she has stopped doin what they do when there in heat, she has been throwing up, constipated, and shedding like crazy! Now im no rocket scientist here, but I do know that we humans have all those same symptoms when we get pregnant. I guess we'll see what happens. Any advice on knowing your dog is pg... and what to do if they are pg is welcome! I dont know what we'll do if she is. 1.) I dont need to take care of puppies and 2 small children. 2.) we have no where to house a dog and her puppies. 3.) puppies are way to cute and having a handful born in your house could lead to keeping atleast one. But on the other hand 1.) I have always wanted to experience a dog giving birth (giving birth fascinates me period.. no matter what it is.) 2.) Madelyn would have sooo much fun with puppies. 3.) puppies are sooo dadgum CUTE!

What to do... what to do

5 months

And today, my Payton is 5 months old

About 14 months ago, when I found out I was pregnant, I thought my life was just about gonna be over... having 2 kids 13 months apart can put a damper on life and I was just gonna be stuck at home all day every day! But the Lord blessed us with our sweet little Payton. She is such an easy baby! I know that God made her that way so that I could still (somewhat) have a life. She is so easy going and happy. She loves to talk and her little talky voice is so stinkin sweet!! She is getting so big!!

-loves to eat real food... and half the time, you cant hardly shovel it in fast enough!

- recognizes bottles

- tries with all her might to hold her bottle.. just doesnt quite have a tight enough grip on it.

- Has her hands in her mouth ALL day long and drools like a maniac!

- Holds stuff so well

- Can almost get her paci in her mouth all by herself.

- love LOVES her bouncer. She has already used it more than Madelynn ever did.

- Spends alot of her time playing on the floor with her big sister.

- Sits up well in the boppy.

- still has some funky hair that now most of the time, lays down. Her hair is also darker... and I think that she has lost what she was gonna lose.

-18 lbs.

- Is always smiling and laughing

and 5 months ago, she graced us with her presence.

I am soooooooooooooooooo so very grateful that I got pregnant so soon after Madelynn was born!! I wouldn't have it any other way! I absolutely could not imagine our life without Madelynn having a sister.... or Payton being an only child. I cant imagine them not being 13 months apart. Its the best decision God ever made for us!!! I hope that when this next little Rose comes along, that I can say this again!!

Little bit 'o sad

I know that I already posted once today... but i got a whole nother thing to tell ya... and its depressing.. well it is to me at least.... and I totally and completely LIED when I said I was gonna be positive about this pregnancy form now on, cuz this aint positive.

So I had my ultrasound yesterday... and I was very excited about it... according to my l.m.p. my due date was Aug. 10, which would out me at 11 weeks. I really did not think that I was 11 weeks just because of all the negative pregnancy tests I got before I got a positive one. So I kinda expected to be set back a little in my due date... because I had this same EXACT thing happen with Payton. So I was absolutely not getting my hopes up that I was really 11 weeks along. So we get there, she starts doing the ultrasound and she is showing me all the stuff, the bladder, the uterus, all that stuff (which why on earth do they feel the need to show you, much less talk to you about pregnancy stuff when your on your 3rd child??? I always just wanna be like ya!! I totally know, I've carried, and birthed 2 children) anyways... so then she gets to the uterus and you dont see nothing... I know enough to know that you should see a baby of some sort. So she kinda starts to freak out.. but at the same time stay calm for my sake. I could definitely tell she was worried about the situation. The first thing that came to my mind was an ectopic pregnancy. So I immediately started to get a little nervous and scared. She decided to do a vaginal ultrasound to see if she could see the baby a little better. So she leaves the room and says she is going to go get another nurse lady to come in and be in the room also and they stand outside the door talking loud and clear to where we can hear them... and im like ok... how bout we dont do that. Anyways... she does the ultrasound and you could see the egg sac and then finally a heart beat! My nerves and my worries went away. I measured at 6 weeks and 2 days... and my due date was pushed back to Sept. 12... which is ok.. that gives us another month to get things ready. But 6 weeks?? That about the worst time you could find out your pregnant cuz thats the absolute beginning and that makes for a loooong pregnancy!!! Not to mention that I am already gaining weight, and already have all these pregnancy things going on (that I talked about a few posts ago.) Like that stuff isnt supposed to start till the 3rd trimester!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been a little upsetting for me. Mostly because I have already had a long, drawn out pregnancy this 6 weeks... and the thought of 34 more weeks of it is very daunting and scary and frustrating! I am slowly coming around to the fact of it so keep me in your prayers. Its gonna be a long journey for us.

18 months.

Wow.. another 6 months has flown by and my little Madelynn is a year and a half! I cant believe it! She is turning into such a beautiful little girl. She brings so much joy and happiness to our lives. Any time your down, she probably can put a smile on your face! We love that little girl so much!!! and definitely cant imagine our life without her!

- she is most definitely in the mocking stage. She does everything you do. Says almost anything you say.

-has just now caught on to talking. She was not much of a talker till now.

- Loves her tiggy (tigger) and her piggy. Does not sleep without them.

-Has to have 2 pacis still at night when she sleeps... or she refuses to stay in her bed. I have created a monster with that one! oops.

- Still sleeps wonderfully in her big girl bed. (with 2 paci's of course)

- Loves to wake up in the morning and go straight to sisters crib and say good mornin.

- Loves the dogs... mostly Mitsy. She sits on her, lays on her, hugs her, bounces all over her... and poor Mitsy is so sweet about it and just looks at us like HELP!

usually when she gets tired and is ready for bed, or nap, she finds a paci (she can find one if there were no pacis left on the face of the earth!!!) and then she finds her mitsy... in this picture, they are under the kitchen table

- In the fridge, I have the lowest little shelf full of Madelynns stuff, like: yogurt, fruit, juice, little lunchables. When the fridge opens, she goes and grabs what she wants and will eat it up like crazy.. not so much of an eater when I pick her food.

- She understands everything you say to her.

- LOVES to help with the laundry (YEA!!!!)

- size 3 diapers

-size 3 shoes

- size 18- 24 month clothes

-23 lbs.

- still takes 2 naps a day (much to my dismay)

- I think, after 2 days of only one nap that Madelynn herself chose to do, were goin into the one nap part of life!!! YAY!!!

- In the fridge, I have the lowest little shelf full of Madelynns stuff, like: yogurt, fruit, juice, little lunchables. When the fridge opens, she goes and grabs what she wants and will eat it up like crazy.. not so much of an eater when I pick her food.

My girls

First picture together! 2 days old.

1 week old

2 months

3 months

4 months

5 months

and what lovely girls they are!

What we've been up to...

Hmm.. lets see... I guess we really haven't been up to a whole lot. I have been hit HARD by the first trimester tiredness. I have NEVER had such a hard time staying awake in my life. Its not fun at all. Being pregnant period is not fun at all. I had planned to try really hard this year to lose some weight... but once again, thats not gonna happen for another 9 months or so. Which is hugely discouraging to me. I told Nat that so far, just this short time that I have been pg... it has pretty much felt like I picked up right where I left off with Payton. I am already absolutely miserable with aches and pains, not sleeping well at night... which makes for an extremely long pregnancy... which makes me wanna go crawl in a hole until this baby is born. Pardon my negativeness... I am trying very hard to be positive and look at the bright side of this... So now that I got that out, Positive from now on (ha).. or I'll at least try.

I started introducing Madelynn to potty training. I am NOT going to have 3 kids in diapers... just not gonna do it. So far she really doesn't understand it... but Im gonna keep trying. She was very scared to sit on it, the hole in the middle I guess was an unsure feeling to her. I finally got her to sit on it... I DID NOT use candy to bribe her to sit on it. Promise.

This is about how it goes.

No, not really she does like to sit on it... just has not pottied in it yet.. her bath water was running and she was absolutely desperate to get in. (bath is way more fun than pottyin')

see??

sorry.. but I couldn't resist.

Payton- 4 months

Payton- 2 months

Payton- 2 weeks

My how they both have grown. In a few days, My Madelynn will be 18 months and Payton will be 5 months. But we'll talk about this at another time.

*now and then

Madelynn with uncle Tyler. 5 months old

Payton with uncle Tyler- 4.5 months old

and he is obviously still a cowboys fan...

and yes, he was watching football in both the pictures.

I guess thats about it. I go on tuesday (I think) for a sonogram and we'll find out just how far along I am and see the baby. I am excited. Its strange cuz with Payton, I didnt care about reading all those pregnancy books... I wasn't interested in what was happening with my baby this week. Not that I didnt care... I was just not into it like I was with Madelynn and I now am with this baby. Im all kinds of into it.. reading all the magazines and books, keeping track of stuff. Hmm... maybe its a boy??? I wouldnt know what to do with a boy.

Thanks everyone for your support and nice things you have said to us... We take it all and are so thankful that we have such wonderful people in our lives....I just hope you know... since your showing us that you support us having 3 kids UNDER the age of 2... you are now in our free babysitter at any time of the day group of people... and we thank you for this.

In case you haven't heard...

I wrote this a couple a days ago so here ya go....

January 6, 2010

Im sitting here looking at a positive, yes I said POSITIVE pregnancy test. Shaking like a leaf, crying a few tears, wondering how on earth we are gonna do this, pay for this, afford a third child. Ya, I said in my posts that we were giving it to the Lord and his will be done.... but when you get pregnant ON BIRTH CONTROL 2 times.... God has some crazy, crazy plan for you!!! I feel like I should be coming up with every excuse in the book to tell everyone cuz people are gonna talk, and there gonna think were absolutely INSANE, and some people I'm sure will look down on us and call us careless (I guess they will have to deal with God on that one.) I cant come up with a good excuse... all I can say is I was on birth control... and it happened, that is 100% God's doings. While I haven't fully accepted this, and YES, i am absolutely freaking out, we'll take it and run with it. We'll raise this child along with its 2 sisters and we'll make a fantastic life for it.

Also.. let me clear somethin up. I am aware that in an earlier post I said that I wanted a baby... had I known I was pregnant I obviously would not have put that. But wanting a baby, and being ready for a baby are 2 totally different things!! I have wanted a baby practically since I knew what a baby was. However, being ready for a baby--- financially, physically and mindfully is something that you have to, to some extent prepare yourself for... when your doing all you can to prevent getting pregnant, and you JUST had a baby 4 months ago... the farthest thing form your mind is actually being ready for a baby. Especially since you already had quite the surprise with the 4 month old.

Now that we got that outta the way, here is the story. I was late... and just figured that I was still just abnormal from giving birth to Payton. It got later and later and I took a pregnancy test and it was negative so I waited some more and IT never came so I took a couple more pg tests and they were all negative. So I was like ok whatever, that is totally fine with me... after all, as much as I want(ed) a baby... I was soooo not ready to be pregnant and soo not ready to go through all that pregnancy junk... and there is no way in heaven we can support 3 kids financially at this moment in time... and Im just not ready so I was A-ok with a negative pregnancy test!

So more time went on and I began having some wacky, horrible, dreams... ya know, the ones that come with pregnancy??? But, I made every excuse for me to not be pregnant.

Meanwhile... my heartburn has been outta control. When I was pg with both girls, I had to take a prilosec every single day in order to function... and now that Im not (wasn't) pregnant, I can go 2-3 days wthout taking it and be fine. I had got some zantac to try something different and cheaper... and I was so mad that I was having to take one every day.. so my excuse for that one was" new brand, doesn't work... but NOT PREGNANT!!!

Another thing was carpel tunnel in my right hand/wrist/arm. I got it horribly with both girls... and all the sudden, brushing my teeth, brushing my hair, blow drying my hair, straightening my hair, washing my hair and writing was a horrendous, painful task.

I also craved bacon. I do not like bacon. I wanted it so bad the other day that I actually got some outta the fridge, fried it up, ate some and put it in every dish we were having for dinner that night. I craved nothing in particular with Madelynn and with Payton, i craved ice... and I ate ice all day long. Literally, you never saw me without a cup of ice in my hand (I am severely paying for it now with horribly sensitive teeth.) So it never really hit me --your craving something my dear self.

I have also been nauseous the past few nights... I got nauseous with both girls (but mostly Madelynn) at night in the first trimester. I made the excuse that I was up watching tv to late and thats why I was feeling sick to my stomach one night. Another night, I made the excuse that my heartburn was so bad that it was making me feel sick. Sounds good right????

Lastly of the signs.... I have been drooling outta control (gross, I know), and that is something that I only do when Im pregnant... I really had no excuse for this one. To be quite honest with you, THIS was the reason for me buying a pg test.

So I expected to wake up this morning, take the pregnancy test and it be negative, then I was gonna call my Dr. and see what I needed to do, if anything, because I was so late. It went in the whole other direction...

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Ok... so just so everyone knows... I did write this a week or so ago and things have changed and I have accepted this. Your prayers are more than welcome for our family. We are excited to see what the Lord has in store for us!!! Pray for our guidance... as going form 2 kids to 3 can be quite a drastic change... like needing bigger things to hold more people.

The baby is due August 11th-ish... and that is subject to change. and Yes, do the math and Payton will not even be 1 yet. Lord help me!

The girls crazy!

My little Payton that is.

When we started feeding Madelynn baby food, she did not take to it till she was close to 6 months.. just didn't get it... the whole opening mouth thing and not thrusting it out was a little to much for her cute little 4 month old brain. Payton on the other hand is a little beast! Her first jar of baby food, she ate over half of it. About 1/4 of the way through, she was opening her mouth wide open when she saw that spoon. Also about 1/4 of the way through, she got the tongue thing down, not thrusting it out, but pushing the food back. This may not seem like much to you, but to me, its pretty cool that she got it so early. Its so neat so see how different my girls are!! It seems like everything Madelynn did really well, Payton struggles with, and the things that Payton has done really well, Madelynn struggled with. There just about as opposite as can be so far! Not complaining about either.

Payton had her first go at a banana in one of those mesh things and lets just say she moaned the whole time out of pure joy of the thing. Little turkey head.

Firsts kinda week

Payton had her first little feeding of rice cereal (blech!!) I never fed it to Madelynn when she was a baby... we just did baby food the whole time. I think its so gross and it has to taste so disgusting so I never was a fan of feeding it to my child. Whats that they say about not passing on your eating habits to your children??? (not that I eat rice cereal often.)... but I think you catch my drift.

she absolutely LOVED it! She cried when I wouldn't shove it in fast enough.

Madelynn- 4 months old. First feeding. Do yall see the severe torticollis??? Why did we not notice it till she was so old??? Like I look back at all of her pictures and its absolutely ridiculous!!

Payton.

Have you ever tried to take a picture of yourself feeding a baby??? Its not very easy.. this was take 4ish.

Madelynn- 4 months old

ends up AFTER I fed it to her, I looked and saw that it was expired... I really dont think it was bad cuz it had never been opened but Im not much of a fan of feeding my child expired food so I ended up throwing it away. Tomorrow, Im gonna go to the store and get her the good stuff.

She also started rolling over this week! Finally! and its not the easy schmesy rolling from the tummy to back... no, my child decides to do things the difficult way. She is a pro at rolling from her back to her tummy and she'll do it all day long... except there is one little factor in this rolling over business, she HATES being on her tummy. So she rolls and cries, rolls and cries, rolls and cries. Its a vicious cycle.

and lastly of the firsts, she got her first ride in the front of the basket!! Fun city!!! I am working with her alot on sitting up and she does really well for only being 4 months old... Madelynn didn't sit up till she was 7 months. I may have said this before but with Madelynn, like I just expected everything to happen on its own... I never like thought to actually work with her on stuff. I just expected one day she would just sit up form laying down and that would be it. I do know that they will do things on there own time and you cant make 'em do stuff but working with them helps. Make sense????

sorry.. but I have to share this... this is Madelynns first time sitting up without the boppy helping... once again, torticollis! Golly I just cant believe how bad it was!

Anyways.. back to Ms. Payton.

Payton- 4 months.

I dont know that she liked it near as much as Madelynn loved to ride in the back of the basket. She thought it was the coolest thing in the world. She laughed and laughed and held on to the basket for dear life.

Madelynn- 6 months. First ride in the front of the basket

Ok.. sorry looking at these old pictures of Madelynn is so fun!! Here is another.

Isn't that so sad?? This was when she had RSV.

Anyways... a little walk down memory lane there.. makes me want another baby. OH MY!! did I just say that??? Seriously, this is an ISSUE! At this rate of me wanting baby after baby, Were gonna be the next 18 kids and counting!! I cant control it... and its outta control. Were just leavin all that up to the Lord.... and what He wants for us is what we get... and I'll take it. He has already blessed us with 2 beautiful little girls and if thats it then I'll be happy with it.. and if he wants us to have 12 kids... I'll take that too!

**please note that its late at night and Nat is on a late night bug killing spree so Im kinda bored... and Im kinda rambling. Pardon my rambles. (Is that a word???)

This candy cane season, Madelynn has a new found love of candy canes! Its sickening. (she takes after her mother) She is obsessed with them, she knows where they are and she will not stop until she gets one.

Its a big, fat, sticky mess! and I love how happy it makes her!

ya... she looks absolutely ridiculously unhappy in those pictures... but it was waaay close to bed time and she had been in the high chair for a long time. (I may, or may not have bribed her with it to try and make her sit there as long as possible so Nat and I could eat dinner... she had already eaten.) I promise, she loves it!

and lastly, I straightened her hair! Is that so ridiculous or what?? I was doin my hair and she was layin on the bed watchin tigger and pooh so I reached over and straightened hers. No worries, it went back curly.